It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Approximately four months I believe. My dear blog I do apologize for the absence however I was too busy saving the world. Correction, my world. What did you think? That Superwoman finally found her kryptonite and disappeared off the planet? Get real. I carry kryptonite around in my pocket just because I like the challenge. =)
When I say I’ve been saving my world don’t automatically jump to the conclusion that this delusional young girl has once again drifted away into the seas of depression (although I wouldn’t blame you). Actually I’ve made some major life changes. I’m sure many of you can relate to me when I say this so please do read on and join me on not my, but our journey of ...dun dun dun dun “growing up.”
We plan. We organize. We prepare. We spend years in school, hours studying, decades working and a lifetime getting ready. For what? That’s a really good question. Have you ever asked yourself for what? I study for a test. I go to school for a degree. I get a degree for a job. I work for money. I need money in life. Yes, very good logic Lilly. A+
A+ for caving into the systematic ways of modern life. Everyone tells me that I need to prepare for life. Do you want to be poor? Jobless? What will you do in life? Errrr....wait, aren’t I already living life? You probably think I sound like Charlie Sheen right now because I sound highly irrational and well, like a cracked out rock star from Mars. But no, that’s not it. I do have a problem though. I have many actually. I have a problem with accepting things as they come. I have a problem with a 9-5 job. I have a problem doing the same repetitive thing over and over again. I have a problem with the fact that society thinks they can map out a life for me and I either follow it or be shunned by all. Pft, what’s so great about society anyways?
I almost shudder at myself in the mirror because I used to be one of them. Them. You know, those people who have to discover the purpose of life, the meaning behind things, the deeper understanding. An annoying little psychologist who had to analyze situations, decipher people, discover what it meant to be alive. Chewing on the back of a pencil I’d question...why do we live? 4 months later I’m chomping on a Mars bar and instead...I’m just living.
Rule # 7: The purpose of life is whatever you make it. Make it good.
The purpose of life is to dance. The purpose of life is to make music. The purpose of life is to write. Yes? No? Actually it doesn’t really matter because you can’t prove me wrong. If you tell me the purpose of life is to collect rocks...well then I’ll be damned. I’ll toss you a few pebbles and continue writing my blog. No one has the answers. Everyone has their theories about life, heaven, hell, after-life, evolution and creation but you know what...instead of trying to figure out life, I’d rather just live it. Life is beautiful like that. Every day is a blank canvas waiting to be drawn on. Using determination, dreams, passion, values and a splash of morals I paint a beautiful picture. Some days I run out of determination and my picture isn’t as pretty but that’s okay because tomorrow I’ll just mix up some new determination and start on a new canvas. Oh I sound so dreamy don’t I? Let’s balance things out...let me contrast my optimistic, fantasy like description of life with some ugly, cold, hard facts.
I don’t have a job. I’m taking a break from school. Paparazzi...wait for it. I’m single.
Haha. I actually thought all 3 of those facts were depressing until I just typed them up. It sounds like a pretty sweet deal. Before you label Superwoman as a failure in life, let me equip those facts with some icing. I have a degree in Psychology as I’ve completed my undergrad. I am going to apply to complete my Masters next year. I am also working on applying for jobs. Being single...hmmm...there’s no icing there...there’s not even spice cake....just boring old vanilla sponge cake that’s a bit stale. But you know what I can’t be blamed for the fact that Superman is fictional so we’ll just ignore that last one. =)
Now you may ask why I choose to mention all the above and bore you with my ridiculous life facts. It was to show you that by me saying I create my own purpose of life, it doesn’t mean I’m saying to forget school, not work and just make YouTube videos all my life. It’s to show you that these things are included in my daily painting. We all live day to day, rushing through life, buzzing through traffic, running to catch the bus, cramming for a test and zipping through experiences because life requires us to do so. Or so we say. But have you ever stopped to think “what do I want to do in life?” It’s crucial you notice that I didn’t say “what do you want to BE?” I don’t believe in this question. Why do I have to be one thing? Instead I ask, “what do I want to DO?” This question is a lot less heavy on the soul and mind. If you’ve never asked yourself this question, I suggest you do. Now at this point you need to realize that dropping out of school, punching your rude and obnoxious professor in the eye and ramming the bumper of the person in front of you may all be things you want to do. Don’t go crazy with it. Seriously, in life, what do you want to do? Discover the answer to that.
I want to make YouTube videos. I want to make people laugh. I want to make music. I want to dance. I want to be successful. I want a good job that I enjoy. I want to complete my masters. I want to help others. I want respect. I want to enjoy every day of my blessed life. These are my purposes. They might change, but right now, these goals and ambitions make up the middle of my drawing. The question is, are my determination, values, morals and passion strong enough to complete the picture? In my head, that’s all up to me. There is no obstacle in life bigger than the obstacles within us. Go wild, create your own reality and dare them to stop you.
You don’t have to grow up like a statue...so structured that your life has no flexibility. Grow up like an artist and paint what’s ahead of you. And don’t spend too much time preparing the paints either...just pick up the brush already.