No it is not my birthday. Today is the birth date of my blog and similiar to most irresponsible teenagers these days, I did not intend on giving birth, it just happened. I've never read a blog and I've never written one. In fact similiar to the irrational activity of twittering, blogging seemed absolutely useless to me. However as I was doing my usual Facebook stalking I came across Remy's profile. A combination of boredom and procrastination of school work encouraged me to click the link for his blog. Honestly, it was about nothing (sorry remy) but entertaining none the less. The idea of a blog suddenly seemed so "freeing". Shruthi later told me the word I am looking for is "liberating". Her advanced vocab sealed the deal and here I am. Happy Birthday Blog!
At 14, I couldn't wait until I turned 21. I am 21 now and I wish at 14, I wasn't so stupid. No, actually that's a lie. Everytime we are in a bad situation we just can't seem to wait until we can move on to that next stage of life. However every stage of life has its rollercoaster rides. I am currently on one. As cliche as it sounds I am trying to find myself and bring peace to the internal battles that take place within me everyday. Here it is in a nutshell: 2 years ago I had a decent amount of faith in the world and in people. I was a pretty religious sikh and loved the feeling of serenity that prayer could bring. Then, my rollercoaster pulled a Behemoth and came shooting down. I need not bore you with the details but as a result I have become cynical, pessimistic and somewhat bitter. Do I want to stay this way? No. Do I want to go back to my old ways? No. What I do want is to restore my faith, however not at the expense of my newly gained knowledge. Faith will not protect you from the realities of life and this I have learned the hard way. Thus welcome the new Lilly, a faithful person with positive views who knows very well that not all people are good, not all promises are kept and every rose has its thorns. But you know what, in the end, it doesn't even matter. I'll show you why... I am going to tell you the rules of happiness.